Peanut Butter and Banana Sandwiches and Flying Kites

My best friend from high school, Laura, is coming to visit me in Chicago next weekend and I couldn't be happier. Out of everyone in the world she understands me better than anyone else. I swear we are the same person in two different bodies. It's weird though, because when ever I need advice I don't ask her anymore. Once we left for college, we haven't kept in touch very well, but we still have our moments where we call and talk about the crazy things we did. We just talked on the phone for a while, and I told her about this girl I like and she asked how I feel about her and I said that everyone else asks why I like her because she's not someone I would normally be attracted to, and the only thing I can say about it is that I know she's not normally what I'm attracted to, but when I look at her I see things that other people don't see and it's just an innocence that I haven't felt about anyone else, but my intentions have never been more pure. Laura and I ended up talking about it for a while and we were talking about the people we dated in high school and the bad relationships, and we were reading our old xangas about how we would walk up to people and say "im cute, your cute, lets go out" and people would always be like "cool ok! :)" and it always worked out. I wonder why I can't do that now. I wish I could let my guard down. The only way I can explain it is by lyrics from my favorite Kate Nash song,,

All the stars up in the sky, all the leaves in the trees, all that matters in the world is how much I like you. Birds can fly so high or they can shit on your head, yea they can almost fly into your eye and make you feel so scared, but when you look at them and see that they're beautiful, that's how I feel about you.


I wish I could just ask her out, and we could go to the beach and eat peanut butter and banana sandwiches and fly kites. Why am I such a dork? No one wants to go on a first date to the beach and fly a kite and eat peanut butter and banana sandwiches...