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There have been times where I've hit rock bottom, and each time it just gets worse and worse. This gets old really fast. Something's going to need to change. I can't find a job, my parents wont talk to me, I don't have money for school anymore, and the rest of my family thinks I'm a joke. For once I'd like to be taken seriously. It seems everything I do is wrong and I keep running into dead ends. I just don't know where to go. Everything I do is always wrong and I always let people down. I'm sick of letting people down. I don't know why people waste their time on me. Eventually everyone will realize there are better people out there to be friends with, and I'll be alone, again. At least I won't be able to let anyone down except for myself. To be honest, there isn't much I could do that would let myself down anymore. I've just learned to accept my faults and I've become really good at apologizing to the others that I hurt in the process. I just wish for one moment that I could truly make someone happy. Just be something to someone. No one's stupid enough to let me get to them though. I just complicate things.