These nights I get high just from breathing

I wonder if with age really does come wisdom? If anything, I feel more clueless than ever. I'm not sure what I'm looking for or where I'm going to find it, but I wish I could figure this out. My parents are now both not speaking to me because my mom asked where all my money went and I told her that for the 50th time I had to buy books for class, and then my dad told me to get the fuck out of the house. So now I'm just sitting here. Waiting until I have to leave for work. Yesterday at work everyone was making fun of me telling me they're surprised I'm smart enough to be in college. It makes me second guess my intelligence. Maybe I'm not as smart as I think I am. Maybe everyone else is right and I just need to open my eyes. Maybe I'm not meant to do anything great, just be another person working a 9-5, just living. I'm starting to think thats more of what I was born to do. I think that there are those people that are destined to do great things, and there are people that make differences in the world, but never really do anything great. I always thought I would do something really cool and do something with my life, do something awesome with music, where my heart is, but maybe I was just dreaming and I need to wake up.